Well, the last little while has been a bit stressful, therefore, the blog has slacked a little.
I was unemployed for just about 2 months. In a way, it was a blessing in disguise. As many of you know, we had a pretty tragic thing happen in the family, and at the time, I was grateful to be there for Brian's family. I've gone through a lot of hardships in my family, and sadly know the ropes around hospitals and waiting around in them. I won't go into any details on this because it is still a sensitive issue within our family.
Shortly after that, my dad went into the hospital because he had peritonitis and gall stones. Double whammy. They thought the peritonitis was caused by a gall stone, but it wasn't. He ended up having to get his gall bladder removed because it was eventually going to be a problem anyway. They think that his peritonitis was caused by his blood pressure medication (lovely little side effects he's been having with it: coughing, peritonitis, and ok blood pressure). I am not very fond of St Mark's hospital though. The day after he was admitted to the hospital, they took him down for an MRI right when I got there. They told me it would take about 10 minutes. It took over half an hour. When he got back, not a single nurse came in to hook him back up to his IVs. I had to go out to the nurses station, and told them to do their job and take care of their patients. It didn't seem like they took care of him very well. And I do understand VERY well that they have other patients they have to take care of, but when a patient is in pain, running a fever, and in need of antibiotics, and the nurses are sitting on their butts doing nothing but chatting, I got a little ticked. Anyway, he was out of the hospital after about a week. Before they released him, they gave him a flu shot, and a pneumonia shot and him go home on Saturday.
Sunday I went over to visit him at home, and he was running a pretty high fever. I think it was like 102.3 or something close to that. I tried calling his doctor, but he wasn't available, so I called the nurses on the floor he was staying on before. They said to take him back to the ER. They admitted him again, thinking it was the flu. They then thought he had a reaction to one of the shots. He was then released 4 days later. All in all, I'm just glad he's doing better now. Hopefully having his gall bladder removed doesn't cause any pain or whatever that can happen with the removal.
I finally got a job 2 months after being unemployed. I work for a medical supply retail store on the other side of the city. It pays really well, and when the benefits kick in, it'll be awesome. All in all, I needed a job change. I wasn't appreciated at my last one, I don't think in the least bit. Not to mention not seeing a single raise.
Brian and I are doing really well otherwise. Brian seems to be staying busy at work, so that's always good. He's had a couple of band gigs at a couple of bars, and he is absolutely amazing! I'm so proud of him! He sings and plays bass really well. I've always admired his talent on the guitar and bass, and I love seeing him do what he is passionate about.
Thanksgiving came and went pretty fast this year. We went down to Brian's Aunt and Uncles in Lehi this year. They have a REALLY nice house. It was good to catch up on things with everyone in Brian's family. I'm super excited that we will have a nephew in May! Jamie is super cute pregnant! They also had picked out a name for him: Layne (Sean is a huge fan of Alice in Chains, and Layne Staley. I also think it's funny that my middle name is Shelayne, and I never picked up on that spelling until recently). I made a pumpkin cheesecake for dessert too. First time I've ever attempted cheesecake, and it was a hit! It was so yummy!
My parents went up around Logan for their Thanksgiving dinner. We would've hit both places if we didn't have the dinners so far apart! We ended up doing another turkey dinner that following Sunday. I love love LOVE my moms sweet mashed potatoes! Super delicious!
I couldn't hold out much longer, I ended up putting my Christmas tree up Thanksgiving night. I was all ready to decorate when I got into the balls, and they didn't have any hooks. I was pretty disappointed, seeing as Friday was Black Friday, and I didn't want to attempt going out shopping! We ended up going out at about 5:30 that Friday night to hit Rue21's sale (the whole store was buy one get one 50% off). We then went to Target to get hooks. We ended up buying a bunch of dvd's though, because a lot of them were around $3.00. We also got The Office season 4 for $12.99. Anywho, the tree was finished Saturday because we went out with some friends Friday night to the Bayou because he was in town from Montana. He's a good family friend of the Freeman's, and of course us too.
My mom's birthday was this past Saturday. It was good to see my whole family get together. Mom made potato soup, and clam chowder. I'm not the clam chowder eater, so that's why she makes 2. Super yummy. I've always loved her potato soup! Bailey's getting so big now too! She's 9 months as of yesterday! She now has her bottom 2 teeth. She's also into EVERYTHING! LOL! She loved helping grandma open her presents! A little preview for Christmas. I got mom a pedicure spa foot bath with some nail polish, scrubbers, and whatnot. I hope she's happy for it! Now to think of what to get her for Christmas! She also got a screwdriver set, and a wrench set, because it's always so hard to find a screwdriver or whatever else there! LOL. She got a 5-disc cd changer, and a couple of dvds. I hope she had a good birthday! I'm sure she loved having Bailey there too. Nathan and Jessica went to a movie that night, and my mom got to watch her =).
All we're doing lately is working, and getting ready for Christmas. I haven't done any shopping yet, but it's because I'm clueless on what to get people! I've also got Brian's brother, Kevin to shop for since I drew his name. Brian got his fiance Nicole, so maybe we'll get something for the both of them. Who knows. They're getting married next June, finally! LOL. They were engaged longer than we were!
I'll try to keep up on posting! Life isn't as stressful as it has been in the last few months!
My World
Sadie Ladie
08 December 2009
09 September 2009
As of last Thursday (9/3/09) I was laid off from my job. I've known it was going to happen sometime in the last 6 months because of the slow down, and also the splitting of the 2 companies I've worked for. I got a one week severance from one of my companies, but don't expect one from the other. I'll be drawing unemployment until I find another job, but the job market is scarce right now. Maybe I shouldn't be picky, but I'd like something with the weekends off. But I am ok for this week and next week. I can also do sales for my dad's insulation company to keep the money steady. As of right now, I've been 2 days without a job, and I'm already stir-crazy. I have however cleaned out a closet, and also gotten quite a few loads of laundry done from our camping trip.
For labor day weekend, we went to Flaming Gorge with Brian's family. It was a lot of fun, and a good way to clear my head from the things at home. My boss (at the time) wasn't going to let me have the Friday off because his anniversary was the same weekend, well, the same DAY, and said that his FIVE year anniversary was more important than my ONE. I couldn't believe he said that! Anyway, he told me about Caffall laying me off, and told me that I could work for him for 2 days a week. HA! I can't survive on 16 hours! Are you kidding me?! And he said I could have Friday off. How nice of him! *rolls eyes*.
Anyway, back to Flaming Gorge. We headed out Friday morning. How nice it is to have a SUV! Everything and Sadie fit in just fine with some room for Sadie to spread out. I much more prefer traveling in the SUV with Sadie over the RSX! We towed Jamie & Sean's (Brian's sister and brother in law) 4wheelers up for them because they were also bringing their jetskis. We got up to the Gorge at about 2:30, and started settling in by setting up the tent, getting the air mattress set up, and whatnot. Brian's brother Kevin & his fiance Nicole were the first ones up at the Gorge. They got there about 10 I think and got a great camping spot on the beach. We were all thrilled! Joe & Cindi, Brian's cousins came next, and then Brian's Dad, then Jamie & Sean, then us. That first night was bitterly cold though! I would say in the thirties! We didn't sleep well at all.
Saturday we were joined by Joe's coworker Craig in the late morning. This was the main entertainment of the weekend! Craig decided he wanted to be close to the lake or something. Well, if I were him, I wouldn't have driven where he did! He started driving near the shore line, and it was VERY wet and muddy! Well, he got his truck, and his trailer STUCK in the mud. He spun out his wheels, and the mud was half way up his tires, and definitely up to his axle! We were all just saying and thinking "what the hell was he thinking?!" It took over 2 hours to get that out. They tried digging it out, that didn't work. They tried using a tow rope, that didn't work. So what finally did work was they jacked up the truck and put some gravel underneath the front tires, and some wood underneath the back tires. After about the 2 hours, Kevin finally was able to pull him out with his truck. He ended up parking his truck and trailer on the road! I had no doubts that the Paulsen boys wouldn't be able to get that truck out!
The rest of the weekend was just relaxing. It didn't get too hot, but I still ended up getting sunburned somehow even though I stayed in the shade the majority of the days. I wussed out on wakeboarding because the water temperature was COLD! I'm one who is still learning, and still fall, and I didn't want to get my head wet. LOL. We rode the fourwheelers, and I got some good reading in (reading New Moon again before the movie comes out this November). Brian's brother-in-law Sean and his friend that came up with them built an amazing fire pit!
23 May 2009
I've been thinking the last few weeks, and I've finally decided it's time to get my butt back into school. I'm ready to further myself in my education which I hope means better opportunities for the future. I don't seem to get anywhere where I'm at now, so I'm going to do something about it. I want to get ahead in life, and just sitting around won't do me any good.
I have a few things I'll be looking into. I'm not exactly sure where I want to go in life, but I hope to find out. I'm sick of taking a backseat to everyone and everything, so I'm taking my life to what I hope to be the next level. Opportunities keep passing me by, and I can't take much of that anymore.
I have a few setbacks right now, so I'm hoping that financial aide is available to me. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
I have a few things I'll be looking into. I'm not exactly sure where I want to go in life, but I hope to find out. I'm sick of taking a backseat to everyone and everything, so I'm taking my life to what I hope to be the next level. Opportunities keep passing me by, and I can't take much of that anymore.
I have a few setbacks right now, so I'm hoping that financial aide is available to me. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
11 May 2009
Today I just feel like I've been stuck in a rut. It just seems that no matter how hard I work, or how hard I try, it doesn't get me anywhere. I try to not be so negative, and for the most part, it's worked, but I don't know if I've burnt some bridges along the way that would advance me in certain aspects of my life. I just feel like no matter what I do, nothing seems to work. I can't keep friends, I don't know why, but I just keep basing it on my personality. People just don't seem to like me for me. They'll hang out with me a few times, and then that's it. One girl even said she couldn't stand me. For what reason, I don't know, but I've always tried be nice and friendly, and of course a good friend back, but apparently that doesn't work in my favor. I've always had problems in that aspect, and I just keep asking why?
Jr. High for example: I was a straight A student in 7th grade. Had a few good friends that I had since elementary, kindergarten even. My "best friend" at the time and I were in all honors classes together. All of us got along great the first part of the year, but after that, my "best friend" and a group of girls decided it would be funny to pick on me. Still to this day, I don't know where I went wrong. Girls would make up fake email addresses, and pretend to be someone else, they wrote on one of my big projects that I didn't put it together. I really had a rough time. One bitch of a girl even hacked into my email account and that was the end of that. I tried to go on my days smiling and being happy, but you can only front that image for so long. I went home daily wondering why the hell was I so unlikable? Where did I go wrong? I still don't have an answer. The majority of my self harming became more apparent at that time. I'm still surprised to this day that no one noticed until I met Brian, but I was also good at hiding certain things.
Yesterday I watched a movie called "Odd Girl Out". Now tv, and movies seem to accentuate things more than real life, but I almost could relate to the movie. Vanessa is liked by one of the girls in the group, but the rest don't. (I think the main point was that she didn't have much money, but that's beside the point.) This group of girls decided to make Vanessa the "Odd Girl Out". The girls dedicate a whole website to Vanessa, and they post terrible things about her. They spread rumors, and there wasn't a thing this girl did wrong. She was driven into a deep state of depression and that lead to her overdosing on pills.
I know a lot of parents out there will say that that's just what goes on in highschool, and there's really no harm in what's going on, but there really is. I've lived it, and I don't really remember my early adolesance being a pleasant experience at all. To this day I cannot forgive what certain girls had done/said to me. To this day I am still bitter about being friends with girls. Some days I just want to blame my negative attitude towards life on them, but that doesn't really get me anywhere. It's hard to get back into a state of living a happy life, when for years you were verbally abused in so many ways. But I still go on with my life trying to be the person I want to be. It's still hard on some days. I've always seemed to be a negative person. But I think growing up I had a lot of negativity around me. It's hard to break that particular cycle. I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't think back to what happened to me in the past, and someday I hope that I do forget what happened, or at least let go of it.
Being sexually and verbally abused I've taken a defense up against everyone I meet. I've come across a lot of hurdles, and in some aspects I'm proud of myself. I haven't had a self inflicted wound in over 2 years now. I got married to a wonderful man who fully supports me in everything I do. I can tell you that intimacy was a hard thing for me at first, but we worked through that together. I guess it's just smalls steps, baby steps, to take one at a time.
For all of my friends and family who are still there for me, thank you. I love each and every one of you for standing by me at certain times in my life when I needed you the most. If I ever hurt anyone in any way, I'm sorry. I truely am. I just hope you can accept my apologies. And please, if you have any issues with me, please discuss it with me. I don't want to go through life wondering what happened, and why things didn't work out between us (as friends, or family). I just hope that together, we can help each other along the way to make me a better person.
Jr. High for example: I was a straight A student in 7th grade. Had a few good friends that I had since elementary, kindergarten even. My "best friend" at the time and I were in all honors classes together. All of us got along great the first part of the year, but after that, my "best friend" and a group of girls decided it would be funny to pick on me. Still to this day, I don't know where I went wrong. Girls would make up fake email addresses, and pretend to be someone else, they wrote on one of my big projects that I didn't put it together. I really had a rough time. One bitch of a girl even hacked into my email account and that was the end of that. I tried to go on my days smiling and being happy, but you can only front that image for so long. I went home daily wondering why the hell was I so unlikable? Where did I go wrong? I still don't have an answer. The majority of my self harming became more apparent at that time. I'm still surprised to this day that no one noticed until I met Brian, but I was also good at hiding certain things.
Yesterday I watched a movie called "Odd Girl Out". Now tv, and movies seem to accentuate things more than real life, but I almost could relate to the movie. Vanessa is liked by one of the girls in the group, but the rest don't. (I think the main point was that she didn't have much money, but that's beside the point.) This group of girls decided to make Vanessa the "Odd Girl Out". The girls dedicate a whole website to Vanessa, and they post terrible things about her. They spread rumors, and there wasn't a thing this girl did wrong. She was driven into a deep state of depression and that lead to her overdosing on pills.
I know a lot of parents out there will say that that's just what goes on in highschool, and there's really no harm in what's going on, but there really is. I've lived it, and I don't really remember my early adolesance being a pleasant experience at all. To this day I cannot forgive what certain girls had done/said to me. To this day I am still bitter about being friends with girls. Some days I just want to blame my negative attitude towards life on them, but that doesn't really get me anywhere. It's hard to get back into a state of living a happy life, when for years you were verbally abused in so many ways. But I still go on with my life trying to be the person I want to be. It's still hard on some days. I've always seemed to be a negative person. But I think growing up I had a lot of negativity around me. It's hard to break that particular cycle. I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't think back to what happened to me in the past, and someday I hope that I do forget what happened, or at least let go of it.
Being sexually and verbally abused I've taken a defense up against everyone I meet. I've come across a lot of hurdles, and in some aspects I'm proud of myself. I haven't had a self inflicted wound in over 2 years now. I got married to a wonderful man who fully supports me in everything I do. I can tell you that intimacy was a hard thing for me at first, but we worked through that together. I guess it's just smalls steps, baby steps, to take one at a time.
For all of my friends and family who are still there for me, thank you. I love each and every one of you for standing by me at certain times in my life when I needed you the most. If I ever hurt anyone in any way, I'm sorry. I truely am. I just hope you can accept my apologies. And please, if you have any issues with me, please discuss it with me. I don't want to go through life wondering what happened, and why things didn't work out between us (as friends, or family). I just hope that together, we can help each other along the way to make me a better person.
27 April 2009
It's been a while since I've posted, so I'll update a bit.
Bailey turned 7 weeks old last Saturday. She is the cutest baby! She's developing a little bit of a personality, and I just love that little thing to death! She's trying really hard to keep her own head up now, and she's to the point where she wants to be held upright to see what's going on around her. Nathan and Jessica have adjusted fairly well as parents (besides a few irritating arguments we've had!). Every time I look at that baby girl, I just am so in love. Being an aunt really is amazing, and I love it!
Brian went to Vegas two Saturdays ago for a "fun" sign supply convention. They flew him to and from Vegas on the same day. He was pretty exhausted on Sunday. He's been practicing with his band every Tuesday and Thursday. They don't have any shows coming up that I'm aware of, but I'm still patiently waiting to see them play live (normally they play at bars). He's also excited about the playoffs, even though the Jazz will probably be out by game 5 or so...He's been working hard at work, and doing really well.
Sadie's as hyper and happy as ever. I feel bad because I'm basically working 2 jobs now (I work part time with my dad at night), and that amounts to about 60+ hours a week, so she's been cooped up a lot in her room. She's loving the warm weather since we can go outside and play with her. I can't wait to take her to the dog park. She definitely needs some socialization! LOL. She loves other dogs! We've been taking her running every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. She LOVES it! As soon as Brian's alarm rings at 6 am, and Brian gets up and puts his sweat suit on, she gets super excited! We have the Gentle Leader for her, that she seems to not enjoy so much. It basically goes around the base of their skull, and up on their nose so it keeps their head up while they're walking, kinda how the mom's do when the puppies are first carried around in a way. Anyway, she hates the thing on her nose. She hasn't had any problems pawing at her nose (imagine a rabbit cleaning it's face with both paws, but fiercer) while jogging with Brian, well, every time I go, she seems to stop several times! I don't know exactly what it is, but it's frustrating because we have to stop and get scratched because she won't let it be. She ALWAYS does it when I'm there or walking her by myself. Lame!
Anywho, work is going ok. We've been a bit slow the last week, but the weather's been pretty lame. It was snowing/hailing for a few short minutes on Sunday, and it rained all weekend. Today was pretty nice though. In the low 60s. Be prepared east coast!
I've been working with my dad with all the fun stuff for the insulation rebate stuff. Not the funnest job, but it pays well, and anything we can get right now is just great. We owed taxes this year....so that set us back quite a bit. We're holding up ok though.
Tonight we went to Brian's friend's wedding. They've been dating for like eight years, so it's about time they got married! HAHA. It really was great seeing them happy though. Lisa was absolutely beautiful! It's just great that they found each other to share their lives with. I look back at where Brian and I have come from, and am just greatful for every single day with him. He's a great husband. Cooks, cleans, takes the dog out, bathes her...could you ask for anything more? I know he's going to be a good daddy when the time comes. He's not selfish at all (one of my favorite qualities in him).
I've been thinking over a lot of things like weddings, and babies, and all that fun stuff. All the good people in my life. Family especially. I am so greatful for little Bailey Faith! She's the most adorable little thing ever! I am so glad that she is as healthy as she is. I just hope she continues to be and has the best life possible! Seeing that little girl is just an amazing feeling, and I can't wait to experience that as a mom (it's not happening for a while guys!!!). Doesn't help that everyone around me has one (or in some of my friends cases....2!). But we definitely want to settle down a bit more. I want to get my medical crap taken care of, and maybe in a couple of years. My family, and Brian's, have been really great to us. We couldn't ask for better family's.
Bailey turned 7 weeks old last Saturday. She is the cutest baby! She's developing a little bit of a personality, and I just love that little thing to death! She's trying really hard to keep her own head up now, and she's to the point where she wants to be held upright to see what's going on around her. Nathan and Jessica have adjusted fairly well as parents (besides a few irritating arguments we've had!). Every time I look at that baby girl, I just am so in love. Being an aunt really is amazing, and I love it!
Brian went to Vegas two Saturdays ago for a "fun" sign supply convention. They flew him to and from Vegas on the same day. He was pretty exhausted on Sunday. He's been practicing with his band every Tuesday and Thursday. They don't have any shows coming up that I'm aware of, but I'm still patiently waiting to see them play live (normally they play at bars). He's also excited about the playoffs, even though the Jazz will probably be out by game 5 or so...He's been working hard at work, and doing really well.
Sadie's as hyper and happy as ever. I feel bad because I'm basically working 2 jobs now (I work part time with my dad at night), and that amounts to about 60+ hours a week, so she's been cooped up a lot in her room. She's loving the warm weather since we can go outside and play with her. I can't wait to take her to the dog park. She definitely needs some socialization! LOL. She loves other dogs! We've been taking her running every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. She LOVES it! As soon as Brian's alarm rings at 6 am, and Brian gets up and puts his sweat suit on, she gets super excited! We have the Gentle Leader for her, that she seems to not enjoy so much. It basically goes around the base of their skull, and up on their nose so it keeps their head up while they're walking, kinda how the mom's do when the puppies are first carried around in a way. Anyway, she hates the thing on her nose. She hasn't had any problems pawing at her nose (imagine a rabbit cleaning it's face with both paws, but fiercer) while jogging with Brian, well, every time I go, she seems to stop several times! I don't know exactly what it is, but it's frustrating because we have to stop and get scratched because she won't let it be. She ALWAYS does it when I'm there or walking her by myself. Lame!
Anywho, work is going ok. We've been a bit slow the last week, but the weather's been pretty lame. It was snowing/hailing for a few short minutes on Sunday, and it rained all weekend. Today was pretty nice though. In the low 60s. Be prepared east coast!
I've been working with my dad with all the fun stuff for the insulation rebate stuff. Not the funnest job, but it pays well, and anything we can get right now is just great. We owed taxes this year....so that set us back quite a bit. We're holding up ok though.
Tonight we went to Brian's friend's wedding. They've been dating for like eight years, so it's about time they got married! HAHA. It really was great seeing them happy though. Lisa was absolutely beautiful! It's just great that they found each other to share their lives with. I look back at where Brian and I have come from, and am just greatful for every single day with him. He's a great husband. Cooks, cleans, takes the dog out, bathes her...could you ask for anything more? I know he's going to be a good daddy when the time comes. He's not selfish at all (one of my favorite qualities in him).
I've been thinking over a lot of things like weddings, and babies, and all that fun stuff. All the good people in my life. Family especially. I am so greatful for little Bailey Faith! She's the most adorable little thing ever! I am so glad that she is as healthy as she is. I just hope she continues to be and has the best life possible! Seeing that little girl is just an amazing feeling, and I can't wait to experience that as a mom (it's not happening for a while guys!!!). Doesn't help that everyone around me has one (or in some of my friends cases....2!). But we definitely want to settle down a bit more. I want to get my medical crap taken care of, and maybe in a couple of years. My family, and Brian's, have been really great to us. We couldn't ask for better family's.
03 April 2009
I have to blog this before I forget. Brian picked Sadie up sometime this past week, just because she hates being held, and does what he always does and says "get mommy". Well, if you've never heard an animal pass gas, wait til you meet Sadie. She's just about notorious for it, whether it's a burp, or flatulence...well, she passed gas, and it wasn't the silent one....no, we heard it. Well Brian looks at her rear end, trying to register what he just heard. He got a "I can't believe she just did that that loud" look on his face, and I was just "rolling on the floor" laughing with the combination of what Sadie did, and the priceless look on his face. I'm still giggling about it because Erika was sitting on the couch, and she goes "Sadie! I heard that!"
11 March 2009
Last Thursday we left for Vegas. We stopped in St. George for gas and to grab some lunch. We ate at Iceberg. While we were eating, I thought I saw my cousin who goes down to school in St. George. I just saw her out of the corner of my eye. After we finished eating, I went up to the counter and asked if Natalie worked there. Lo and behold, she did! Of all the places to stop at, we pick where she works! I still think it's funny.
After lunch we headed out for the hour and a half trip to Vegas from St. George. They are widening their freeways down in Vegas, so traffic was stop and go for about 15 minutes or so. We finally got to our hotel, and checked in at about4 Vegas time. We relaxed for a bit before we headed out on the strip.
We stayed at Excalibur, and it was nice because we weren't too far from some good casinos and other attractions. I think we gambled a little bit the first night, but we took it easy too.
Friday we walked over to the Luxor and Mandalay Bay. We gambled a bit there, and I won $90 off of $7. I was excited! LOL. We then walked the strip. I think we walked about 12 miles or so that day, and boy was I exhausted when we got back. We set out to see the lions or tigers at the Mirage, but they didn't have them for us to see for free anymore, so we started walking back to our hotel. We stopped for lunch at McD's, and we shopped a bit on the way back. I got 2 new wraps that you can use as skirts, shirts or dresses. They are pretty interesting and cute.
Brian's friends who he worked with at Subway a few years back joined us in Vegas on Friday (well technically early Saturday). We had breakfast with them at the Sherwood Forest Cafe in the hotel. They treated us to tickets to The Tournament of Kings at Excalibur for my birthday. I thought that was very nice of them! Brian and I have never seen it, and I was pretty interested in it when we got there, but I thought it was too expensive. After we got the tickets we went to Mandalay Bay to see the Aquarium. Pretty interesting. I've never seen sharks up close before... We then went to a bar at Mandalay Bay. Their service wasn't the greatest, so we left to Excalibur's bar.
Chris and Lisa wanted to go see Criss Angel's show that night, and both Brian and I weren't very interested in seeing it, so we told them to go and have fun. They went and bought their tickets, and we killed some time before The Tournament of Kings dinner. It was such a good show! And the dinner was pretty good. A whole chicken! Haha. I enjoyed it all. After that, Chris and Lisa went to the Criss Angel show, and Brian and I went to our room to relax before we were going to go on the Roller Coaster at New York New York. I've never been on it, and I wanted to go on it at night, so we got on the last ride for the night. It was fun, although I was extrememly tired.
Chris and Lisa had to leave on Sunday to get back to work and their wedding planning. So in the morning, we had breakfast with them, and then we went and saw the Bodies exhibit. That was pretty cool....and weird. They then headed off for Salt Lake, and I'm sure they got better weather than we did on Monday! After a while we had lunch at In-N-Out burger. Brian's never been there, so I hope he liked it! It was a mad rush though. After lunch we went and did some shopping, and then we went back to the hotel and gambled a bit. We then called it a night.
Monday we left about noon Salt Lake time. I think we should have left a little earlier, although I don't know if that would've helped much with the horrible snow storm. We stopped in Mesquite for lunch at Popeye's and then a beer run. We checked on the price of gas in Mesquite, but they're a lot higher than Utah. So I told Brian we should wait til St. George. We made it to Cedar City though. After that we hit rain, and then snow. Brian was getting a little bit worried about the snow pack on the freeway (it was getting icy and there was so much snow), so we got off on the Mona exit. Their's practically nothing there, and I had to go to the bathroom. We tried to get service on our phones, but barely could. We were trying to access the internet to see if there were any back roads he could take. There really weren't. I called my dad, and he told us to get back on the freeway and that the roads should be clearer the more north we go because the plows would be out nearer to the more populated cities. I turned Brian's hazards on, and we set out for at least Payson. We stopped at a WalMart so we could have a pit stop. The roads were a lot better there, but still some snow on them. People drove way to fast for the conditions. We then finally made it home about 7:30/8. It was a scary drive.
On Saturday, Erika called me and told me that Nathan and Jessica had Bailey. I was so sad that I couldn't be there to see her right away, so I had Erika send me a picture of her. She is such a cute little baby! She seems to be really healthy =). I saw her last night, and she was just sleeping away. She's so tiny! I can't believe how beautiful she is. She's so perfect! I already love my niece so much! She is such a miracle.
04 March 2009
Reflection
A friend of mine posted this as a bulletin on MySpace. I really like it. It's also made me think:
IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.' There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's'
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute.look at it and really see it . . live it and never give it back.
STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what. Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
For the past couple of months I've been feeling a bit regretful for what I had done a few years back. I know what I did was the right thing, but it doesn't change the way that I feel. When people in your family feel as if the accuser isn't believable, it makes you think twice about what you've done. Why would someone make up something so asinine?! Why would someone accuse someone of something of such magnitude? Why would I want to ruin a family? I've ruined a relationship within my family, and I'm not proud of that at all. I was sent into a deep depression for many years, not exposing a single thing to my family. I got to a point where I felt like my life wasn't worth anything anymore, and I was hurting myself on a daily basis.
I don't want to go into any details on here, but I just feel like I need to get this out. I never meant for relationships to be ruined. I never meant for people to resent me. I was just trying to protect the innocent that were in that person's presence. I didn't want anyone else to go through the pain that I have gone through since I was 10 years old. No 10 year old should have bouts of severe depression. No 10 year old should feel as if her life is worthless. No 10 year old should have to feel that she needs to hide something so painful from her parents. No 10 year old should have gone through it alone. My parents have told me on numerous occasions that they wish they would have known. Not to write off "the cat scratched me" excuse time and time again. But then again, I was good at hiding it most of the time.
Someone else talked to me about something that could have happened to them in the same situation. I'm glad they didn't have to go through what I did, but now they are uncomfortable with that part of the family. If I had said something about it sooner, instead of when I was 16, nothing would have been attempted. Maybe some family members would believe me. And maybe I wouldn't be left with so many scars to remind me of the horrible things I went through by myself for so long. But I can only speculate what could/couldn't have happened. I can't change the past, so I have to live with the ruined relationships, and never be able to speak to the ones that I care about again.
IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER - by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.' There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's'
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute.look at it and really see it . . live it and never give it back.
STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!
Don't worry about who doesn't like you, who has more, or who's doing what. Instead, let's cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
For the past couple of months I've been feeling a bit regretful for what I had done a few years back. I know what I did was the right thing, but it doesn't change the way that I feel. When people in your family feel as if the accuser isn't believable, it makes you think twice about what you've done. Why would someone make up something so asinine?! Why would someone accuse someone of something of such magnitude? Why would I want to ruin a family? I've ruined a relationship within my family, and I'm not proud of that at all. I was sent into a deep depression for many years, not exposing a single thing to my family. I got to a point where I felt like my life wasn't worth anything anymore, and I was hurting myself on a daily basis.
I don't want to go into any details on here, but I just feel like I need to get this out. I never meant for relationships to be ruined. I never meant for people to resent me. I was just trying to protect the innocent that were in that person's presence. I didn't want anyone else to go through the pain that I have gone through since I was 10 years old. No 10 year old should have bouts of severe depression. No 10 year old should feel as if her life is worthless. No 10 year old should have to feel that she needs to hide something so painful from her parents. No 10 year old should have gone through it alone. My parents have told me on numerous occasions that they wish they would have known. Not to write off "the cat scratched me" excuse time and time again. But then again, I was good at hiding it most of the time.
Someone else talked to me about something that could have happened to them in the same situation. I'm glad they didn't have to go through what I did, but now they are uncomfortable with that part of the family. If I had said something about it sooner, instead of when I was 16, nothing would have been attempted. Maybe some family members would believe me. And maybe I wouldn't be left with so many scars to remind me of the horrible things I went through by myself for so long. But I can only speculate what could/couldn't have happened. I can't change the past, so I have to live with the ruined relationships, and never be able to speak to the ones that I care about again.
02 March 2009
Saturday night we went to the Huka Bar with some cousins. We had an ok time. We're both kinda shy when it comes to new people, so we didn't move around much. I saw a couple of people I haven't seen in years! (Jon, Golden, Steve). It was crazy! Hopefully we'll go a bit more often and I'll get to know people better! We had a few drinks, but I was really tired at about 11. Sad, I know! So we left.
It's really funny having my I.D. checked! Everyone had to look at their watches to make sure of the date! At Club Allure on Friday, I got checked at the door...then a couple of cops came in, put a flashlight in my face, and demanded my I.D. again! I gave it to them, and they kept looking back and forth from my I.D. to my face, and then the other cop looked at his watch and says "2 weeks in a row!". Well, hmmm, what do most 21 year old's do for their birthday if they drink, huh?! At the Huka, I didn't have a problem at all, except when they checked it at the door. Got my birthday wishes though...lol. Then last night we went to Red Robin. I ordered a beer, and the waiter asked for my I.D. of course. He kept looking at my birthdate, and not the "Under 21 until 02/26/2009". He's like "Well, I guess my sister turned 21 last year, and she was born in '87, so that makes you 21"! NO DUH! Brian thinks I need to have them reissue me a license that's horizontal instead of vertical so I don't get questioned for the next 5 years.
Yesterday, Brian and I just had a lazy day. Partying 2 nights in a row can get to ya!
It's really funny having my I.D. checked! Everyone had to look at their watches to make sure of the date! At Club Allure on Friday, I got checked at the door...then a couple of cops came in, put a flashlight in my face, and demanded my I.D. again! I gave it to them, and they kept looking back and forth from my I.D. to my face, and then the other cop looked at his watch and says "2 weeks in a row!". Well, hmmm, what do most 21 year old's do for their birthday if they drink, huh?! At the Huka, I didn't have a problem at all, except when they checked it at the door. Got my birthday wishes though...lol. Then last night we went to Red Robin. I ordered a beer, and the waiter asked for my I.D. of course. He kept looking at my birthdate, and not the "Under 21 until 02/26/2009". He's like "Well, I guess my sister turned 21 last year, and she was born in '87, so that makes you 21"! NO DUH! Brian thinks I need to have them reissue me a license that's horizontal instead of vertical so I don't get questioned for the next 5 years.
Yesterday, Brian and I just had a lazy day. Partying 2 nights in a row can get to ya!
28 February 2009
On Thursday, I turned the big 21! Pretty exciting! It was a pretty good day. Got several birthday wishes throughout the day. Brian sent me roses at work! They are so pretty! He's such a sweetheart. Dan Roberts (the Utah Jazz arena announcer who rents space from our company for his Kitchen and Bath design company) gave me a check for $75.00! He's way too generous!
We were going to go out that night for dinner, but Spaghetti Mama's was reserved for a highschool dance and a wedding! So we went out last night. Love that place! My grandparents, parents, Arianne and Erika came along with me and Brian. It was so yummy! My parents gave me a Betty Crocker cookbook because I've been trying to find one that's inexpensive, but no dice. It was actually one my mom got for her wedding, so it's nice to be able to have that handed down. She also got me a cross stitch pattern (Frankenstein), that I'll have to start this summer if I'm not too overloaded with what I just ordered!
After we got done with dinner we went home to drop off our leftovers. Brian and Kim planned to take me to a club because Thursday nights are not the best nights, especially having to go to work the next day! So we went to Club Allure last night. It was really fun! They've got pool, music, dancing and of course, it's a bar too. Started the night off with a "Fruity Pebble". Brian was asking me what I wanted, but I don't know drinks well enough yet. The bar tender asked if I liked sweet or sour. Of course I like sweet. I really liked the drink. I was bought drinks periodically through the night, all of which were good. Kimi, B.J., Kim, Travis, Travis' friend, Brian and I all went. None of my other friends could go with, but we still had fun! We left about midnight because I was feeling a bit sick. Kinda happens after 4 drinks and a shot (it was more like 3 shots in one!)!
Brian's got one more gift on the way. He ordered it on monday, and it said to allow 2-6 weeks for delivery. I don't know what he got me! I'm clueless! I told him not to get me anything since we're heading to Vegas next week. But he doesn't listen! LOL! I have such a wonderful loving hubby!
All in all, my birthday was really good! I'm getting impatient for Vegas next week. We really need a vacation!
We were going to go out that night for dinner, but Spaghetti Mama's was reserved for a highschool dance and a wedding! So we went out last night. Love that place! My grandparents, parents, Arianne and Erika came along with me and Brian. It was so yummy! My parents gave me a Betty Crocker cookbook because I've been trying to find one that's inexpensive, but no dice. It was actually one my mom got for her wedding, so it's nice to be able to have that handed down. She also got me a cross stitch pattern (Frankenstein), that I'll have to start this summer if I'm not too overloaded with what I just ordered!
After we got done with dinner we went home to drop off our leftovers. Brian and Kim planned to take me to a club because Thursday nights are not the best nights, especially having to go to work the next day! So we went to Club Allure last night. It was really fun! They've got pool, music, dancing and of course, it's a bar too. Started the night off with a "Fruity Pebble". Brian was asking me what I wanted, but I don't know drinks well enough yet. The bar tender asked if I liked sweet or sour. Of course I like sweet. I really liked the drink. I was bought drinks periodically through the night, all of which were good. Kimi, B.J., Kim, Travis, Travis' friend, Brian and I all went. None of my other friends could go with, but we still had fun! We left about midnight because I was feeling a bit sick. Kinda happens after 4 drinks and a shot (it was more like 3 shots in one!)!
Brian's got one more gift on the way. He ordered it on monday, and it said to allow 2-6 weeks for delivery. I don't know what he got me! I'm clueless! I told him not to get me anything since we're heading to Vegas next week. But he doesn't listen! LOL! I have such a wonderful loving hubby!
All in all, my birthday was really good! I'm getting impatient for Vegas next week. We really need a vacation!
06 February 2009
Early this morning, we woke up to Sadie barking, and huffing and puffing (she does this every time someone knocks or rings the doorbell at the front door). Brian gets up and looks out our window wondering who the hell is ringing our doorbell at 5:10 in the morning. We weren't expecting anyone, and if we were, I'm sure they would've called us first. Anyway, as Brian's looking out the window, there's an SUV parked on the corner of our house with their lights on. The guy gets back into his vehicle and drives around to the back of our house. Brian told me to get my phone, and be prepared to call the cops. As the guy drove around our house, he backs up and faces his SUV at the back of our house with the lights on. He then starts honking. Brian told me to call the cops, and so I did. I told them that there is a possible home invasion that could happen, and we needed someone there. They ask for the description of the vehicle (it was dark, so you couldn't see much, but he knew it was an isuzu in a dark color). They asked if we could see the person in the vehicle, and of course we couldn't. Then they asked for a license plate number. We couldn't see that either. So they sent some cops over.
Brian decides to turn on the light to let him know that we are aware that he's there. The lights that we have out back are motion censored, so when it detected that there was no movement, it turned off. The guy gets out of his vehicle and walks around the side of our house. I was getting a little nervous by that time, but the cops showed up right then. The guy ran back to his vehicle, but the cops had his lights on as if he had pulled him over, and I believe another cop's vehicle was blocking so he couldn't leave. They talked to him (I wish I could have known what that guy was doing there), and they took some of his papers. They were out there for about 15 minutes or so. I don't know if the guy thought he knew who lived here or not, but I did not recognize him at all. I don't think the cops thought he was a threat because they let him go. But 2 cop cars stayed behind for a while, I think just in case.
We both tried to get back to sleep, but my heart was pounding with fear of what could have happened. Brian was also coughing up a storm, so every time I'd get somewhere close to sleep he would cough =(.
I always worry that something bad might happen. Sadie may bark at someone, but I don't know if she would ever attack. I don't think I'd want her too, though, because what if they shot her? She is part of my family, like my own daughter, and I would be distraught if anything happened to us or her. Brian doesn't believe in having a gun, and I am with him on that. People tend to shoot people they know, rather than someone who's breaking in. I told him we need to get a baseball bat though. I'm also thinking of getting an alarm system set up for my house.
Brian decides to turn on the light to let him know that we are aware that he's there. The lights that we have out back are motion censored, so when it detected that there was no movement, it turned off. The guy gets out of his vehicle and walks around the side of our house. I was getting a little nervous by that time, but the cops showed up right then. The guy ran back to his vehicle, but the cops had his lights on as if he had pulled him over, and I believe another cop's vehicle was blocking so he couldn't leave. They talked to him (I wish I could have known what that guy was doing there), and they took some of his papers. They were out there for about 15 minutes or so. I don't know if the guy thought he knew who lived here or not, but I did not recognize him at all. I don't think the cops thought he was a threat because they let him go. But 2 cop cars stayed behind for a while, I think just in case.
We both tried to get back to sleep, but my heart was pounding with fear of what could have happened. Brian was also coughing up a storm, so every time I'd get somewhere close to sleep he would cough =(.
I always worry that something bad might happen. Sadie may bark at someone, but I don't know if she would ever attack. I don't think I'd want her too, though, because what if they shot her? She is part of my family, like my own daughter, and I would be distraught if anything happened to us or her. Brian doesn't believe in having a gun, and I am with him on that. People tend to shoot people they know, rather than someone who's breaking in. I told him we need to get a baseball bat though. I'm also thinking of getting an alarm system set up for my house.
25 January 2009
Brian's been bugging me to update, so here we go...haha
I had my followup appointment the week after I had the oral surgery. They took x-rays, and he pulled out the stitches. Apparently most people dissolve them. I'm apparently not that lucky (ex. Sealant didn't dissolve from the root canal from 2 years previously, infection after infection never leaving the tooth that was a problem, yay!). All seems well, though. Said it looks like everything is healing up, and he won't have to see me til the summer just to check on it.
We hung out with Brian's sister, Kim and her boyfriend Travis, last night. We played some cards, and caught up on things since we haven't seen them since Christmas. Definitely good to see them again. Kim said that she put me in her phone as "Jenna Paulsen" and that she loved having another sister. I thought that was very sweet of her =D.
It snowed here today, and I'm hoping it's going to clear up the nastiness in the air! The rain didn't do much but create fog, and that was a nightmare! We drove home from work on Friday, and it was clear until we hit part of the freeway, and you couldn't see very far ahead. When we got to our street, you couldn't see 10 feet in front of you. Sadie loves the snow though, although she didn't like it when I took her out this afternoon. She acted as if she need to go to the bathroom, but as soon as she got snow on her head, she darted right back into the house. I took her out a bit later, and she did fine, and wanted to play in it. Maybe when it's not so dark, I'll let her play and eat it. I called her in, and she started eating the snowflakes off her back. So funny!
Brian and I have been having lazy days, although we shouldn't have. I did get 3 loads of laundry done, and I did a whole afternoon of cross stitching. Got 2 dolphins done today! We were supposed to go over to my family's for dinner tonight, but my mom called and let me know that they were all throwing up, and probably should just stay home. This inversion, I think, is making people sick. I wasn't feeling too hot last night, but I didn't throw up even though I felt like it. I try not to as much as possible....yuck!
I had a dream last night that little baby Bailey was finally here. I'm kind of excited to see my little niece even under the circumstances. I just don't know what's going to happen with her. I sure hope she is going to be born perfect. No child deserves to have health problems if it can be avoided. She's due the first week of March, but I expect her to be a lot sooner. I think she's in distress since she's already turned.
Anywho, it's 10:30, and Brian's already asleep. I should head to bed as well.
I had my followup appointment the week after I had the oral surgery. They took x-rays, and he pulled out the stitches. Apparently most people dissolve them. I'm apparently not that lucky (ex. Sealant didn't dissolve from the root canal from 2 years previously, infection after infection never leaving the tooth that was a problem, yay!). All seems well, though. Said it looks like everything is healing up, and he won't have to see me til the summer just to check on it.
We hung out with Brian's sister, Kim and her boyfriend Travis, last night. We played some cards, and caught up on things since we haven't seen them since Christmas. Definitely good to see them again. Kim said that she put me in her phone as "Jenna Paulsen" and that she loved having another sister. I thought that was very sweet of her =D.
It snowed here today, and I'm hoping it's going to clear up the nastiness in the air! The rain didn't do much but create fog, and that was a nightmare! We drove home from work on Friday, and it was clear until we hit part of the freeway, and you couldn't see very far ahead. When we got to our street, you couldn't see 10 feet in front of you. Sadie loves the snow though, although she didn't like it when I took her out this afternoon. She acted as if she need to go to the bathroom, but as soon as she got snow on her head, she darted right back into the house. I took her out a bit later, and she did fine, and wanted to play in it. Maybe when it's not so dark, I'll let her play and eat it. I called her in, and she started eating the snowflakes off her back. So funny!
Brian and I have been having lazy days, although we shouldn't have. I did get 3 loads of laundry done, and I did a whole afternoon of cross stitching. Got 2 dolphins done today! We were supposed to go over to my family's for dinner tonight, but my mom called and let me know that they were all throwing up, and probably should just stay home. This inversion, I think, is making people sick. I wasn't feeling too hot last night, but I didn't throw up even though I felt like it. I try not to as much as possible....yuck!
I had a dream last night that little baby Bailey was finally here. I'm kind of excited to see my little niece even under the circumstances. I just don't know what's going to happen with her. I sure hope she is going to be born perfect. No child deserves to have health problems if it can be avoided. She's due the first week of March, but I expect her to be a lot sooner. I think she's in distress since she's already turned.
Anywho, it's 10:30, and Brian's already asleep. I should head to bed as well.
21 January 2009
Yummy Utah Weather!
Lovely Utah....YUCK! And all these people who hate the idea of electric cars! Get over yourselves, and look what it's doing to our health!
Air now unhealthy for general public
Air now unhealthy for general public
January 21st, 2009 @ 11:24am
.. (KSL News) The air along the Wasatch Front right now is hazardous to your health.
The heavy smog that has gathered over the past few days due to the inversion has led to air quality officials to warn that the air outside is unhealthy for the general public, and not just those with health problems.
Health advisories have been put in place in Cache, Salt Lake, Davis, Utah and Weber counties warning residents to avoid heavy exertion outside.
http://www.ksl.com/?nid=148&sid=5379152
08 January 2009
Endodontic Appointment 1/7/2009
Yesterday I went in to see the Endodontist. They basically specialize in root canals. I've had this tooth that had a root canal quite a few years ago, and then it started hurting again, and had to have it retreated. Right before my wedding I had the tooth crowned. About a month and a half ago it abscessed, and I had my dentist sand down the crown because we both thought it was too high and getting irritated from that. My dentist told me that if it abscessed again, to go see an Endodontist, so I called them on Monday.
Well, I get there about 1 pm, and they had fallen behind. Don't blame them because I was one of those people that took a couple of hours as well. They took an x-ray, and they saw there was an infection in 2 teeth that were close together. They said both teeth root canals looked really good, and the infection looked like it was along the jaw bone where my teeth join the jaw. The only way to get rid of it was to pull the teeth, or have surgery. I don't want to lose anymore teeth, but the surgery was expensive. I opted for the surgery because I have a credit card that has no interest for 12 months. I can make payments as if it was set up like a doctors office.
I had to call someone for a ride home because I was going to be sedated and couldn't drive home. I was quite upset because of having that be one of 2 last resorts. I had to make a few phone calls because Brian was at work, with no car, so I called my mom, then my dad. My dad was available to come get me after the procedure (I had to call my boss to let him know that I wasn't going to be coming back in that day and possibly the next). Brian got off work anyway, but had to have B.J., his cousin/our room mate to come get him so they could come pick up his car (I can't drive a stick yet, and I was borrowing B.J.s car to go to the appointment). They both met at the Endodontist office around 4.
After I got off the phone with everyone they started the sedation process. I took an anti-nausea pill prior and they crushed up a sedation pill so it would work faster. The Endodontist then came in to numb my mouth up (I don't know why since I was going to be out of it!). They then put on the nitrous oxide, and the last thing I remember before I was out was the doctor doing another shot of the localized anesthetic. I guess the procedure went well. I woke up, but I was extremely nauseous. They told my dad and Brian that is seemed like I was using a narcotic prior to the surgery! I don't do that kind of stuff, thank you! They've never had anyone so nauseated after a procedure, and they were pretty worried about me. I think it was most likely because I swallowed a lot of blood (I had to have a tooth pulled back in the summer because it broke and there was no way to save it. If you remember losing a molar when you were younger, you know that they bleed a lot more. Well, I was nauseous that night and the day after, so I've had that experience).
I don't really remember leaving the office besides them putting me in a wheelchair. I don't remember the drive home accept for the stops when Brian went to get my meds (pain pills, antibiotics), because my dad got into the car to watch me while Brian got all that. I kind of remember coming home because I took my shoes off and I remembered to remember to take my contacts out and went to the bathroom. Next thing I know I woke up at 10:30 that night and was feeling a lot better and I had come to - fully. I took all the necessary pills and got ready for bed.
My right cheek is pretty swollen (comparitive to when I had my wisdom teeth removed), and it's a little tender. But I'm ok overall. My mom called me this morning and was surprised that I was at work. I have a bit of a headache, and the tenderness of the surgical site, but other than that I'm doing surprisingly well. Hopefully it will heal quickly.
Well, I get there about 1 pm, and they had fallen behind. Don't blame them because I was one of those people that took a couple of hours as well. They took an x-ray, and they saw there was an infection in 2 teeth that were close together. They said both teeth root canals looked really good, and the infection looked like it was along the jaw bone where my teeth join the jaw. The only way to get rid of it was to pull the teeth, or have surgery. I don't want to lose anymore teeth, but the surgery was expensive. I opted for the surgery because I have a credit card that has no interest for 12 months. I can make payments as if it was set up like a doctors office.
I had to call someone for a ride home because I was going to be sedated and couldn't drive home. I was quite upset because of having that be one of 2 last resorts. I had to make a few phone calls because Brian was at work, with no car, so I called my mom, then my dad. My dad was available to come get me after the procedure (I had to call my boss to let him know that I wasn't going to be coming back in that day and possibly the next). Brian got off work anyway, but had to have B.J., his cousin/our room mate to come get him so they could come pick up his car (I can't drive a stick yet, and I was borrowing B.J.s car to go to the appointment). They both met at the Endodontist office around 4.
After I got off the phone with everyone they started the sedation process. I took an anti-nausea pill prior and they crushed up a sedation pill so it would work faster. The Endodontist then came in to numb my mouth up (I don't know why since I was going to be out of it!). They then put on the nitrous oxide, and the last thing I remember before I was out was the doctor doing another shot of the localized anesthetic. I guess the procedure went well. I woke up, but I was extremely nauseous. They told my dad and Brian that is seemed like I was using a narcotic prior to the surgery! I don't do that kind of stuff, thank you! They've never had anyone so nauseated after a procedure, and they were pretty worried about me. I think it was most likely because I swallowed a lot of blood (I had to have a tooth pulled back in the summer because it broke and there was no way to save it. If you remember losing a molar when you were younger, you know that they bleed a lot more. Well, I was nauseous that night and the day after, so I've had that experience).
I don't really remember leaving the office besides them putting me in a wheelchair. I don't remember the drive home accept for the stops when Brian went to get my meds (pain pills, antibiotics), because my dad got into the car to watch me while Brian got all that. I kind of remember coming home because I took my shoes off and I remembered to remember to take my contacts out and went to the bathroom. Next thing I know I woke up at 10:30 that night and was feeling a lot better and I had come to - fully. I took all the necessary pills and got ready for bed.
My right cheek is pretty swollen (comparitive to when I had my wisdom teeth removed), and it's a little tender. But I'm ok overall. My mom called me this morning and was surprised that I was at work. I have a bit of a headache, and the tenderness of the surgical site, but other than that I'm doing surprisingly well. Hopefully it will heal quickly.
Here's a pic of my swollen jaw =(
05 January 2009
Just a forewarning, I'm complaining through this blog...
This morning I woke up, took a shower, and then started brushing my teeth. My gums were sort of tender, and so after I finished up brushing, I look and see that my tooth that I've had a root canal, then retreated, got crowned just before the wedding, has abscessed yet again. The first time it went away, but in the last few weeks, that tooth has been bothering me quite a bit. I then wake up this morning with an abscess....yay. My dentist told me that if I have any more problems with that particular tooth to go to an Endodontist. Well, I call one up today, get an appointment, and she said that it's going to cost $1000+ depending on if it's just a retreatment of the tooth, or if I have to go through surgery. I am so SICK of my stinking teeth! I know Brian's been getting frustrated with me too, because I don't have a vehicle, therefore, he has to drive me because I can't drive a stick. Well, if I didn't have all these damn medical bills that I need to take care of, I would buy myself a vehicle, and wouldn't have to bother him with all my problems. Ever since I was little, I've had cavity after cavity after cavity. No matter what I do. I brush 3 times a day, I get more cavities, I brush once a day, I don't get any, but the teeth that have been treated start to hurt again. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm almost tempted to just pull them all and get dentures. Sad isn't it? Here I am, 20 years old, and have had more dental problems than my whole family combined!
Along with just being 20, I get diagnosed with a heart problem almost 2 years ago, I have a stomach condition (which is quite embarrassing if you ask me) that I was diagnosed with when I was 16. I don't know what I've done to deserve anything like this. I try and eat healthy. I've slacked on exercise, which is something I need to get back into, but that's beside the point. I've noticed though when I do exercise, my heart seems to accelerate even faster than anyone's should even though I am on beta blockers. I just don't know what to do anymore. It's so frustrating that I have to miss work, losing the money that way, and then have huge medical bills on top of it. I was supposed to go in for a colonoscopy/endoscopy about a month back, but canceled that because of the money. I'm only 20, and shouldn't have this many health problems. What 20 year old racks up medical bills like I have lately? I don't even have a general practitioner doctor because of all the specialty docs I already do have. Let's see, I have: a Gastroenterologist, Cardiologist, Gynocologist, Dentist, Endodontist, and an Allergist. I figure that if they check me out, I don't need to go to another one to tell me I'm unhealthy in some other way.
Sorry for this complaining rant. I'm just getting so frustrated by everything lately, it's just piling up. I don't know what to do anymore =(
This morning I woke up, took a shower, and then started brushing my teeth. My gums were sort of tender, and so after I finished up brushing, I look and see that my tooth that I've had a root canal, then retreated, got crowned just before the wedding, has abscessed yet again. The first time it went away, but in the last few weeks, that tooth has been bothering me quite a bit. I then wake up this morning with an abscess....yay. My dentist told me that if I have any more problems with that particular tooth to go to an Endodontist. Well, I call one up today, get an appointment, and she said that it's going to cost $1000+ depending on if it's just a retreatment of the tooth, or if I have to go through surgery. I am so SICK of my stinking teeth! I know Brian's been getting frustrated with me too, because I don't have a vehicle, therefore, he has to drive me because I can't drive a stick. Well, if I didn't have all these damn medical bills that I need to take care of, I would buy myself a vehicle, and wouldn't have to bother him with all my problems. Ever since I was little, I've had cavity after cavity after cavity. No matter what I do. I brush 3 times a day, I get more cavities, I brush once a day, I don't get any, but the teeth that have been treated start to hurt again. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm almost tempted to just pull them all and get dentures. Sad isn't it? Here I am, 20 years old, and have had more dental problems than my whole family combined!
Along with just being 20, I get diagnosed with a heart problem almost 2 years ago, I have a stomach condition (which is quite embarrassing if you ask me) that I was diagnosed with when I was 16. I don't know what I've done to deserve anything like this. I try and eat healthy. I've slacked on exercise, which is something I need to get back into, but that's beside the point. I've noticed though when I do exercise, my heart seems to accelerate even faster than anyone's should even though I am on beta blockers. I just don't know what to do anymore. It's so frustrating that I have to miss work, losing the money that way, and then have huge medical bills on top of it. I was supposed to go in for a colonoscopy/endoscopy about a month back, but canceled that because of the money. I'm only 20, and shouldn't have this many health problems. What 20 year old racks up medical bills like I have lately? I don't even have a general practitioner doctor because of all the specialty docs I already do have. Let's see, I have: a Gastroenterologist, Cardiologist, Gynocologist, Dentist, Endodontist, and an Allergist. I figure that if they check me out, I don't need to go to another one to tell me I'm unhealthy in some other way.
Sorry for this complaining rant. I'm just getting so frustrated by everything lately, it's just piling up. I don't know what to do anymore =(
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